I didn't know what to think when I heard the news about Monty. I was hoping that he was going to be alright, or that whatever was going on, it wouldn't affect me that much. For some reason or other, this has affected me more than anything else in my life. My grandmother died 2 years ago, and I was sad, but it was expected. This wasn't.

I don't really contribute much to the community, even though I lurk and love it. I don't really know what I should do with my life, even thought I'm almost 25. This has been the biggest wake up call for me. I don't know why. I don't know how. But I hope that somehow, I can live up to what Monty was trying to get us all to do. Live life.

I had written and deleted this journal because I don't know what to say. But everyone else in the community has already said what I was thinking. I don't need to reiterate it.

Thank you Monty. I hope that you are smiling over all of us here and edging us on to newer and greater things.