So after the wash of a day yesterday I woke up today determined to make it the best day possible.

I unfortunately had a hard time sleeping, and when I woke up a lot of those evil emotions where still there. But that's when I remembered something.

I've always been complimented on my ability to write and convey emotions through words. It's always been a way I got through depressing times. In middle school and High School I wrote songs about the girls who I thought broke my heart. (I know just an every day Taylor Swift)

But after high school I never really allowed my self to open up to anyone else, therefore I never needed to write anything and forgot about how much better it made me feel.

well after waking up today still feeling like shit, I put aside the mountain of homework I have to do today, knowing I need to clear my head to even think about focusing on it. A thought came into my head about writing. The last thing I wrote was a letter to my dog after he passed away. That letter gave me closure and allowed me to accept what was going on.

In this case no one died, but in a way its a potential relationship dying I guess. So why wouldn't the same affects apply? So I made coffee and sat at my desk and just started typing. What I thought was going to be a quick paragraph journal type thing quickly turned into an essay of sorts.

By the time I was finished it was 3 pages long and over 2000 words. I guess I had a lot I needed to say lol. But the flip side is for the time being I feel better. I can still feel the bad shit hanging on in the back of my head ready to pounce. But for the time being my mind is free. So lets rush through this homework before it comes back =D

Also I want to thank everyone who reached out to me yesterday. It means a lot and I just want to say thank you. We really are a family here.